Get right outta town

its been over three years. super mega fast update. i am no longer 17 i no longer do meth i am no longer punk i live on my own i am still more awesome than you i no longer have pink hair... i know, i know.  weird, right? (see figure A) i deliver pizza i drive a 4runner i am single i am bi i love my friends, wu-tang, hello kitty, my family, and hannah montana ( not neccesarilly  in that order) i am still friends with a lot of the same people i have met new awesome people i love fun i am still equally... read more

SO outta all this anger and madness i am totally happy. I lived on the edge. Fagundes and I fooled around behind ashley's back... i've never done that, and you know what! i'd do it again! i don't regret any of it! I mean it I don't! I finally said, I'm young and stupid and if he wants to spoon me then damn it let him! LMAO omg jessie called me up yesterday and said Matt Houser~walgreens guy~ still thinks of me! OMFG THAT'S SO GREAT! cuz i was just thinking about him a few days ago. and ODDLY it...

my head hurts. and it's not just from being here. being here feels like a big mistake. the reasons for why i ran so far away over the years.. well those reasons are all coming back in an instant. this home isn't my home. i need to find a place that is mine. okay so i had a great weekend. beyond great. it makes me be happy for having an amazing friend. but now i'm back to my parents. back to the feeling of a lump in my throat, wanting to just cry for no reason, and never being good enough in their...

This morning I got into work early, and immediately went to my favorite spot in the whole wide world: the KCup machine spot. God bless coffee. At any rate, I'm fixin' up my Our Blend and digging around for the cream in that black hole that is the common refrigerator when WHAMMO! I look to see if there is any sugar. And there isn't any. Bastards. So I had to settle for Equal. Which, seriously, is not the same as sugar. Grumbling back to my cube, I sit and sip and check my email. Which is...

Emo warning: giving you a fair shot to click the back button now. So its only been a week and I've had enough. I don't want anything to do with the major I'm in. Or really any major at this school cause I don't wanna be here. I can't be a damn PT, cause I can't pass the math to be a PT or even a fucking PTA. I am so gahh stressed over the math that after looking over the courses I have to take for my BA I can't pass at least three. *Curls up in little ball and cries* Get me outta here! I don't know...

Yep thates exactally what I'm thinking.. tho its not totally all a bad thing.. not everything was upside down... It seemed to all start when I plucked up the courage to go back into Xanders workshop in the garage to get a screwdriver.. mostly I don't go in there, the last time I did, I managed to break a scroll saw.. yep, I did.. don't ask hwo, I dunno.. but i hadn't been in there since.. anyway.. I got the screwdriver I needed.. the Flat headed one.. so that i could screw the two screws...