last night was brutal. so many memories that i had spent YEARS pushing away resurfaced. we talked on the phone till almost 2. hes hurting..... more then anyone knows. i hate it. bc i cant do a single thing about it. just be there. what i do now cant fix the past for either of us. many think he is just pulling the "oh-poor-pitiful-him-act". to those who do, you have never been there. watching people being put through that... and feeling like its your fault. when you lose your purpose at such... read more
